My Everyday is a Winding Road

YOU KNOW YOU’RE IN SCARCITY WHEN…

Your friend at work gets a promotion and you find yourself feeling jealous, rather than happy for him.

You see a person driving an expensive car and find yourself feeling resentful or judging her.

You make purchases on credit and live beyond your means, you’re dissatisfied with what you have.

You postpone important purchases that would add dramatic value to your life, even when you have the money to make them, because you can’t stand to part with your cash.

When your spouse or child asks you to buy something, more often than not your immediate response is that you can’t afford it.

You find yourself frequently wishing for a better life, yet you think that it would be futile to strive for something better; there’s never enough time and money to do the things you want to do.

You have ideas about how to make your life better, like switching careers or starting your own business, but are afraid to put them into action.

You keep your money in “safe” investments like Time Deposits and money market accounts because you fear losing it.

You pick the riskiest investments, cross your fingers, and hope for high returns, thinking that gambling and luck is your best path to wealth.

YOU KNOW YOU’RE IN ABUNDANCE WHEN…

Your primary focus in life is to lift, serve, and bless the lives of others.

You feel happy when others succeed-even those who may viewed as your competition-and you never feel threatened by others.

You feel satisfied, complete, joyful and calm.

The purchases you make align with your core values.

Your investments are wise; you’re not naive, nor are you overly skeptical.
You perform wise, patient research and make an educated decision.

Rather than saying “I can’t afford it,” you ask, “How can I afford it?”

You consistently overcome fear, through faith and courage, to pursue your dreams and a career that aligns with your passion and purpose.

You’re able to work with others to achieve things that you couldn’t do alone.

You take responsibility for your life and your work and use your internal strength to overcome all challenges and transcend external circumstances.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. I know there’s more to improve, grant me the right attitude take and do all of it positively - 10/14/2008

I can still remember the first time I heard Lani Misalucha’s A Very Special Love (I was at the mall
for window shopping but it made me buy her CD on the spot!) – Vivid and I
felt like I was floating as I listened to it. I like the original, but for me, I
love her own rendition and how she ‘owned’ the song and made ‘something different’ out of it. For
me, A Very Special Love is a work in progress. It can never be that perfect at
first. I know that failures and hardships that I’ve been through and, probably,
still be going through (I so hope not!) will teach me how to be deserving for that VSL. Despite things aren’t happening the way I hoped it to
be right now, I’m still that optimistic. I may feel low at times (like today) but I know that someday,
somehow and somewhere, VSL will come around – with a little hope (w/ crossing fingers), prayers, and the
right amount of work! One day this will be “the
song” for “the one”. There were times I got tired and burned out, hell yeah but
I still tried and will still be trying - over and over until I can finally say:
“I
found a very special love. A feeling that’s so totally new, that’s burning
inside, that breaks me in two, that squeezes me tighter and I’ll never gonna
let go of it.” For now, it’s just a wishful thinking that happens every
morning as I get off the office, looking up at the sky, inside the train on my
way home, there’s the song playing in my cp music player  

I never believed in love
I was deceived by love
I never had much luck with lovers before
And I couldn’t compete
I seemed just part of the street
To be walked on by everyone but then

Then I found a very special love in you
It’s a feeling that’s so totally new
Over and over, it’s burning inside
I found a very special love in you
And it almost breaks me in two
Squeezing me tighter
But I’m never gonna let go

You’re not like the rest
I know you’re one of the best
You give more than you should and take nothing in return (in return)
Stay always with me
And I always will be
The one person that you can count on always to love you

And I found a very special love in you
It’s a feeling that’s so totally new
Over and over, it’s burning inside
I found a very special love in you
And it almost breaks me in two
Squeezing me tighter
But I’m never gonna let go
But I…

Found a very special love in you
It’s a feeling that’s so totally new
Over and over, it’s burning inside
I found a very special love in you
And it almost breaks me in two
Squeezing me tighter
But I’m never gonna let go

– 2nd best, You are the One (Nyahaha!)

They say: "It’s better late than never." Does it
apply when you’re already old, has enjoyed life selfishly or achieved so many
things but has become wrinkly and all alone? Aren’t we sometimes preoccupied
with things we would want to do first or achieve? Racing with time just to make
our goals and dreams happen? After getting everything, we would still feel
something is missing and will hurry ourselves up, race with Time again, because
we realize it should have been done a long time ago. I guess no one has ever
won over Time yet without looking back, realizing they neglected / sacrificed
something - or someone. So before you grow old, when it becomes too late, or
near the "never", find that someone who’s willing grow old with you
too…

…in Time.

Just when I thought I don’t believe in horoscopes anymore, I decided to click on the horoscope link here…and voila! Just what I needed instead to banging my head against the wall….read on…

The Bottom Line

Don’t get upset if things aren’t progressing the way you’d like them to. Be patient. (Asa!?!)

In Detail

So that person who seemed desperate for your phone number still hasn’t called — so what? You can’t get upset if things aren’t progressing in the manner you would like them to. You can’t always count on other people to follow through with promises. Do not waste time on trying to come up with the reasons someone does or does not do something they said they would — why work so hard to come up with excuses for someone else? Make ‘I’ll believe it when I see it’ your motto today. (I say, not just today but all the time!)

in your face, Justin! Hahaha…

…"I’ll believe it when I see it!" from here on in….

"Let
‘em say what they wanna say, let ‘em think what they wanna think. It
won’t make me feel lesser of a person anyhow. It’s not me who’s wasting
time anyway. I’m used to that kind of unsolicited attention. They’re
just an addition to my nuisance list"

- A. Bautista

….all rights reserved

Loving gives you the chance to be happy but there’s a high price to pay -  you are also giving yourself to vulnerability and the possibility of being hurt by the one you love. And there’s a lot of chance-takers. Ever wonder why? For me, it’s because love is the closest thing to magic. It’s a power you possess and about to share - learn how to use them well and be CAREFUL to whom you are going to share it with.

- Agustin Aristeo F. Bautista 1/26/07:127a

Time flies - it’s 2007 and this will be my first blog for the year. My 2006 has been one of the most exhilarating roller coaster ride of my life. There were fun and mishaps but never did I forget the lessons learned along the journey.

With Friends, I met new ones, rekindled the friendship with long lost ones and still finding those that I lost contact with, and strengthen bonds with the old but great ones that stayed.

With my Family, with the help of God’s grace, we surpassed all storms that came our way last year. Thank God.

With Work, this has been the deadly loops of my roller coaster ride last year. I thought I was gonna breakdown, Thank God I just had breakouts because of that! Hahahah!

With Love, as the most intriguing part of it all, the steepest uphill of the ride. Like always the first time, going uphill was great and exciting. I was hoping for the long linear tracks up at the top. The uphill reached the peak and the ride went downhill immediately - there were no long linear tracks that I was hoping for - no breaks to hit on in order to make it stop - I just had to stay on the ride. Thank God again it was over and I pray that I’d never be on that same kind of tracks ever!

This year and for all the years that I’ll be living here on earth, only Him knows what’s in store for me. I am hoping that He would continue molding me to become a better person for the people around me - family and friends, and for myself most importantly. Thank God for everything last 2006… :)   

"There are those that open you up to something new and exotic. Those that are old and familiar. Those that bring up lots of questions. Those that bring you somewhere unexpected. Those that bring you far from where you started and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself."

C. Bradshaw

Disclaimer: This thought has been running inside my head and should have been posted years ago but this is the only time I was able to put it in writing. This has nothing to do with the people I am working with right now for I enjoy working with them. I hope we got no crabs. Bato-bato nalang sa langit…

My dreams are bigger than my disappointments. However, it’s so frustrating to know that no matter where I go, I see crabs always want to pull me down. Crabs that are up to no good. Why don’t these crabs leave me alone once in for all? Different faces but they’re all the same. No matter how humbly I do my job, they’re there. Please. Stay away from me! The last thing I need right now are people like you and the disappointments you always bring. I already had enough.

I am not paranoid and I just hope I am wrong.

Why am I saying this? It’s because I am not a crab. I acknowledge the fact that some people are better and it inspires me to do my best in everything that I do but I don’t see myself far better or above anyone. Some people are just…oh well….good at being crabs! Don’t you know that people like you inspires me ‘3 folds’ to do my best in everything that I do? But did your mama ever tell you to just play and keep it clean?