My Everyday is a Winding Road

Irresistible Distraction

by Agustin Aristeo Bautista

Irresistible Distraction…how should I define this. All of us have this Irresistible Distraction in life. You’ll never realize it until you have come to your senses that this thing or person had become an Irresistible Distraction for you. At a glance, you’ll find the word so negative. You might find it as a temptation that lures you in doing something that you should not have done in the first place. An enticement that excites and weakens you at the same time, but it felt good during the moment you are being mesmerized by the/an Irresistible Distraction. This definition will just materialize in your mind at the end part, ‘coz you’ll feel something good from it at first.

You get what I mean? It can be a thing, an activity or a person. I’d say it isn’t an addiction nor a habit. You’ll just find yourself unable to do things the right way unlike before when nobody can stop you. You’ll find yourself that you cannot make it through the day without thinking about your, doing your, being with your, having your, or being DISTRACTED by the Irresistible Distraction and no matter how hard you try denying it to yourself – you really like the feeling, you will stop with what you are doing, you can see the Irresistible Distraction’s picture in your mind, then you’ll hear yourself ‘Tsk-ing,’ a slight frown on your face until you sigh and eventually smile (with matching gleam on your eyes). Believe me all of us had our share of Irresistible Distractions. It happens whenever you are busy at work, walking at the mall, driving, studying or plain “me-trying-to-keep-myself-busy-today.”

What to do about it? It’s all up to you. Well actually, as I have said, you’ll never know that it was an Irresistible Distraction until you have come to your senses. I don’t mean to say that having an Irresistible Distraction is no good. For an Irresistible Distraction can eventually become something worthy of your time. How? If the ‘symptoms’ suggest and you feel surreal about it, just wish, pray and work on it. Pray and work it out so that it may become “lasting.” Otherwise, just go with the flow until you get used of not being distracted. You’ll learn it for sure. Until you find yourself getting back on track, back to your normal life, refreshed and more lethal than before.

I believe that an Irresistible Distraction comes to our lives for a reason. It is just a phase which you will eventually know, until you come across that it/she/he was really just a distraction. However, the Irresistible Distraction can be what you really need and wishing for. It can be a mere distraction that brought nothing good until you realized it. A distraction that might bring you happiness or might plainly hurt you in the end. For whatever that is, we do not know. That is, until you’ll know and find yourself saying that it was once actually an Irresistible Distraction for you. If it lasts, be happy and thankful with it, but if not, stop fretting and resentful that it was just a distraction that lead to nothing, instead, be happy with the fact that, although you had better things to do and think about, there was once an Irresistible Distraction that made you feel good about yourself and throughout the days you were being distracted. — JT

The article below is really nice. I kept a copy of this up until yesterday. When I was listening to Natasha Bedingfield’s “Unwritten” Album, I discovered that there is a cut which happens to be of the same title.  So I decided to share this to you, guys coz for sure you’ll gonna like it and Natasha Bedingfield’s song too!!! J

The One That Got Away

In your life, you’ll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you
shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There’s the
one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your
virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you’re with…and the
one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it’s that person with who(m) everything
was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was
no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards
just didn’t fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime
partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually
argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with
the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and
commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When
you’re not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn’t matter who(m) you’re
with, it just doesn’t work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials
become deal breakers simply because you’re not ready and it shows. It’s
not that you and the person you’re with are no good; it’s just that it’s not
yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you’re ready. You really are. And when this happens you’ll
be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most
perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in
your life, but it’ll work because you’re ready. It’ll work because it’s the
right time and you’ll make it work. And it’ll make sense, it really
will.

So that day comes when you’re finally making sense of things, and you
find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach
is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and
you’ve become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there’s
no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you’re single but you could
be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it
doesn’t matter. All you know is that you’ve changed, and for some
reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You’ll think about them because you’ll wonder, "What if they were here
today?" You’ll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am
and not as I was?" That’s what the one that got away is. The biggest "What
if?" you’ll have in your life.

If you’re married, you’ll just have to accept the fact that the one that
got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your
marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you’re
mature enough to realize that you’re already with the one you’re with and this
is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen
your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you’ll think about him/her every so
often, but it’s alright. It’s never nice to live with a "might have
been," but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who’s already married. In which
case it’s the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories
of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the
future when you’re old and gray and reminiscing.

But if neither of that is the case, then it’s different. What do you do
if it’s not yet too late? Simple…find him, find her. Because the very
existence of a "one that got away" means that you’ll always wonder, what
if you got that one?

Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn’t matter if
you’ve dropped in from out of nowhere. You’d be surprised, you just might be
"the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got
away."

You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won’t make a difference. If
the timing is finally right, it’ll all just fall into place somehow and
you know, I’m thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able
to say to someone, "Hey you, you’re the one that almost got away."

*The Song…

"The One That Got Away"

Natasha Bedingfield

Would you spare me a minute give me a single chance
To look in your eyes let me hold your hand
I want to get close enough to read you, understand you
Open up your heart open up your mind
Nobody needs another stalker in your life
I’m only here to help you learn to love me, to know me

Chorus

I need a hook so you won’t be the one that got away
I need a look that stuns you makes you want to stay
Don’t want to speak in case it comes out wrong
Don’t want to blink cause in that second you could be gone
I need a twist to help me turn, turn this story around
I need a bridge to cross this dangerous ground
Meet me in the middle like I want you to
I gotta find your heart to shoot my arrow through

Did you see me staring you caught my eye
Don’t turn around don’t walk away
The night is young can we get together
Got so many questions feelings I can’t explain
We’re worlds apart don’t even know your name
I’m longing to give you my heart

[Chorus]

Turn around don’t evaporate
Like you never came turn around
Don’t be a ghost forever never there to haunt me
Sliding doors they aren’t just on a train
We’re alone on a platform in the rain
There’s a chance and it won’t come again
Turn around your whole life has changed

[Chorus]

‘Nuff of the mushy stuff…

After a week of hard work, we finally reduced our load. Hats off to my teammates. No more overtime for us. That’s good for me since I’ll be allowed to file for a vacation leave. Nah! Technically it is called "Vacation Leave" but this is not a leave to take my time off and go on a vacation. I need a leave so that I can finally stick my face on to the books I should have read months ago. Hay! Goodluck to me. Kakakayanin ko ito!

And finally…It’s my off! There’s nothing to be happy about, Jstin coz you’re back to review school! Tsk! :-S

At last…I finally did it! My first-ever Blog!

Hayyy…Mondays…A lot of people hate Mondays but I don’t. I always avoid Manic Mondays and to do that, I make it a point to start my Mondays right. Well here it goes….Woke up at around 11 and was on the go at around 1 pm…Bright sun-shiny afternoon! I already have my itinerary for the day…gotta pamper Justin first, fix my things and condition myself for the entire week of working, pseudo-studying and some stuff. Mau SMS-ed me. Sorry my dear friend, I hope you understand that I have a lot on my plate right now. Too bad, I thought, I wouldn’t be able to go back to Pasay today and to meet you coz I have a lot of things to do and it always have to be on schedule. I was able to finish everything early! Great! But I haven’t study yet! Heeheehee! I decided I’ll go to Pasay to bring some of my dirty laundry and I miss my home too y’know! (Sorry Mau it slipped out of my mind to tell you about it. L) Gosh! I haven’t eaten lunch yet but, luckily, they have Nilaga at home so starving myself was all worth it. I’m back to the night shift, hence, I cannot stay long and I had to go. 8:10 pm, For the last 2 months that I have been staying in Sampaloc Manila, all rains poured so hard but there was never a time that I got stranded. It was very ironic that I experienced this pa when, surprisingly, it poured hard in Pasay when I was on my way to the office! Damn! And now, I have a pair of squishy sneakers. “Smile, Justin. Smile. …Justin it’s past 8:30 and you’re still at Taft Avenue Station! You can’t afford to be late!” I SMS-ed my manager but no there was no reply. Hooohooo keep your cool let’s pray that you’ll get there on time. 8:46 PM Cubao Station…”Kaya pa yan, Justin! Lipad ka nalang!” 8:51 PM Quezon Avenue Station “Amf! Where’s that f*ck*n MRT Card!?!  Do something about it! Kaya pa! You still have time…Sir, magkano ang lost card? 15 Bucks…Ok Go! (Too fast! Too furious! Storming down the stairs of Metro Rail Transit Quezon Avenue Station) “Manong Tryke! ELJ bilisan mo male-late nako!” Haha! 8:57 PM! Thank God! I still have 3 mins to wash my feet with Alcohol! Well, I almost thought My “Tantra” song for the day would fail me…whew…buti nalang it didn’t! Not one thing brought me down for today and I prevailed…Got to do things right…J (Btw, I was listening to this song on my MP3 Player when I was about to start my day.)

When I opened up my eyes today
Felt the sun shining on my face
It became so clear to me
That everything is going my way
I feel like there’s no limit to what I can see
Got rid of my fears that were holding me
My endless possibilities
Has the whole world opened up for me
That’s why…

I’m feeling so good
I knew that I would
Been taking care of myself
Like I should, cause not one thing
Can bring me down

Nothing in this world’s gonna turn me around

Now the day is turning into night
And everything is still going right
There’s no way you can stop me this time
Or break this spirit of mine, oh no
Like the stars above I’m gonna shine
Anything I want will be mine
Tonight I’m gonna have a good time
Call a few friends of mine
Cause I’m loving life, and tonight…

I’m feeling so good
I knew that I would
Been taking care of myself
Like I should, cause not one thing
Can bring me down

Nothing in this world’s gonna turn me around

Party on the night
Everything is feelin’ right
DJ

I’m feelin’ so…

Party on the night
Everything is feelin’ right
DJ
The world’s gonna turn me round

I’m feeling so good
I knew that I would
Been taking care of myself
Like I should, cause not one thing
Can bring me down

Nothing in this world’s gonna turn me around

And as soon as I arrived in the office, I noticed…

- Jencarps is wearing red today too!

- I’m assigned to a new workstation and it’s located along the aisle. I don’t like this spot. It’s too bare and I can’t do some stuff! Heeeheehee!

- This can be very, very “FROST”-trating! (emulating Raz’s statement)

- Raz is happy today and I know why! Hehehehe!!! “HP” Ink Jet !

Till my next blog mi amigos and amigas!